... I dreamt that one of my guy friends kissed me LOL but considering the last dream I had was of me shooting myself in the head (and still managing to walk around with blood oozing out of my skull) and the one before that was me in the passenger seat of a car (my oldest bro was driving and I think we weren't supposed to use the car because he gave me this mischievous look???) which almostfell off a cliff and then almost drowning because heavy rains caused the area to flood...

I don't think I have much faith in whatever my subconscious is trying to tell me. That said, I've always been fascinated in the "meaning" of dreams ever since secondary school I think? There was this teacher who talked about the power of dreams and the ability to lucid dream... Hehe and it goes without saying that I wanted the ability to bend the world to my will who doesn't?!? So I started recording as much as I could remember from my dreams in my dream journal :3 I haven't written in my dream journal in a while though because I've been lazy and have not been dreaming as much as I used to... but take my word for it that my dreams are wild and can be very disturbing

So apparently, the first step (and the most crucial one actually) to lucid dreaming is the realisationthat you're dreaming. Because in our dream state our brains make up things to make us believe whatever situation we are in, we often do not know that we're dreaming. Like wow, that really says something about how easily convinced we are lol is this how brainwashing works ...oh how susceptible we all are to suggestions LOL

I think I've managed to acknowledge that I'm in a dream state maybe 2/3 times since I started recording my dreams? But in those dreams, it's always because I am in control of some power but is too weak to fight LOL... Yet that instant when I regained my self-awareness is a feeling that can't really be replicated -- it's like I suddenly become more cognisant of the "world" I'm in and better able to take in more details than before.

* Nope, I'm not gonna talk about the guy who kissed me in my dream or the dream itself LOL

**More importantly, my friends also have weird dreams but let's face it which dream isn't weird and the other day we were talking about our recent dreams and she described this scenario which I thinkI have seen played out before?? Like I dreamt that dream previously?? ((It was a very exciting dream about spies and escaping from other people))

***Hohoho and I always experience deja vu MAYBE I'M CLAIRVOYANT

Late night rambling are random of course I might make this into a series, which will henceforth be known as: I should really be sleeping but I'm not Thoughts at Three

Edit: omg I've used so many "I think"s in this post?? Must be the result of having the と思います lesson for Jap yesterday LOL